I’m writing this under the influence of some pumpkin spice tea with Bach Flower Remedies and Ayurvedic Ashwaganda in it. Aspen flower remedy is for replacing, “apprehension and vague fears with a sense of security and peace of mind.” This is all I’ve been trying to do my whole life!
Were you born fearful? I was.
Just because I’m very outgoing and assertive, doesn’t mean I haven’t dealt with anxiety and fears my whole life. It comes out as tension and auto-immune illness for me. There’s no way to get rid of it; I just work through it. I’m optimistic it will be gone once I work through it enough. I’m not there yet. So I keep working.
I scheduled a Reiki 1 Class and no one signed up. I didn’t realize today would be a damn busy Sunday where I live and that there would be a free event for 20,000 people…I know September is a busy-crazy month here and there’s a lot to compete with, but I scheduled it anyway. I didn’t want to have a limiting belief that this was a bad day to set up a class because there’s so much going on. Reiki people probably don’t want to hang around with 20,000 others… There was also a yoga fest this weekend… There’s literally a thing every day in September here. But I decided to not let that hold me back. Some people expressed interest in my class, though I didn’t think they were serious.
So when it was time for class, I decided to head on over to White Dove and see if any stragglers walked in.
No one straggled in. And that’s OK. I showed up. I created the class, printed out my handouts, and prepared for it. Then no one showed up. This is the risk you take when you run our own business. It wasn’t because of competing events or lack of marketing. It was just not the day or time to teach Reiki 1 and/or my students didn’t find me.
And that’s OK. Because I’ve had a perfectly fine and relaxing day anyway — which I probably needed much more than I needed to teach a class and pass down some Reiki. I’m in an energy where I need a ton of self-care, so it’s not surprising. I mean, in a duh-forehead-smack a-ha moment here — the Universe gave me a day off from my work to play.
So what’s the Fearless lesson here?
Do it anyway. Sure, it’s an excuse and a copout and a limiting belief to tell myself I shouldn’t schedule something in September around here. But I did it anyway. I could have stayed home in my PJs like I really wanted to, but what if someone had shown up really wanting to take Reiki 1? I have to suit up and show up for that one person. Will I reschedule it? Of course! It’s happened before and it’s the nature of light working. Sometimes you have a crowd, someones no one knows you’re there. But you just keep showing up willing to do the work. That is the work. It’s my work anyway.